where is my letter?

waited more than one month since my interview day...more than 2 months since i pass up my complete documents in Putrajaya, yet until today i still waiting for my induction letter, still "measuring ground" in my home....
what can i say?.....sien:(

too much of graduates??!?! and perhaps less manpower for processing plus inefficiency of workforce made the wait longer....there's a long queue still :(
in conjunction with whole nationwide big celebration of Hari Raya....i guess some people still in Raya mode even till today

looking all my friends one by one getting their letter, starting to work, and some even already work for months, it doesn't feel good unless you are enjoying your holiday somewhere else

maybe they just want me to have another week of rest......
maybe i should take more time to brush up more knowledges
or maybe, there's no more space for incoming new houseman?

whatever, just hopeit will come in no time, although endless and countless frustrations cum scolding with anger will be on their way :S

still waiting....

after 2 months of waiting...i m still here waiting for my time to start work
never thought it would be so late...
i wished i have the eager to go back and learn...but seem like what i m doing now, more like time-wasting
arghhhhhhhh....
WHAT AM I DOING NOW????

is all the hardworks gonna pay off?

i'ts quite hard decision...it's all lie upon me and i guess it's quite huge responsibilities....
it's kind of 1st experience for me, but i believe i can handle it well, as i have bunch of good and nice comrades around me, we have had fight all along the way until now, we started as nothing, but now at least we can come out with something, and hopefully with this something can bring many many things for all of us.
but so far did we heard any compliments?......anyone heard it? tell me if you do :)
what i heard are all backtalks, criticism, bad remarks.....are we able to get through it?
are all our hardworks going into drains? it's all depends on the response, and it tells me it's GOOD!

for anyone out there, pls have a look inside, try to see for what we had done so far before giving any comments. your concern is highly appreciated :)

trying to walk today...but still felt something unusual with my right ankle joint....aih

回家好吗？？

几天来都没事做。。。闲在家里
或许该读些书吧。。。不然日子太无聊了。。。。《心灵鸡汤》或许是一个不错的书吧
一年从头到尾都埋头苦读那些医学书。。感觉太乏味了

今天被老爸子叫去帮忙。。。心理百般心不甘，情不愿
为什么我的假期就是这样。。。没有欢乐？每天就是这样这边忙、那边忙？？
为什么别人可以有那么开心、快乐与回味无穷的假期？
哎。。感觉有点命苦：（
哎。。为什么我会回家？？
心想：这或许是最后一次了。。以后做工了，都不知有没有机会回家呢！但心里头突然冒起一个念头，希望以后做工会去其它地方，东马？北马？哪儿都好，就是不要靠近家的！！会很幼稚吗？和自己的家斗气。。。。

最近有一些短短的片子。。由本地的人制作，满有意义的，得空都回去看看，支持本地制作嘛～～
这个蛮不错的。。我喜欢～

不要！！！

不要
不要
不要
不要
不要
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我不想再过这样的日子了。。。。
每次都是这边等一下，那边等一下。。。结果一整天就这样过去了，什么也没做到！
你要我当你的司机是可以，但请别把我当全值好吗？？
你需要我帮忙，我可以帮忙，但请你别全部自己都拿来做好吗？？
我的假期不该这样浪费的！！

home alone

being home alone....i guess not many people will like this way, rite?how many people can withstand loneliness?
but for me i enjoy my every chances being home alone....
do what ever i want, watching movies without distraction, listening to which ever music i like,switch on speaker aloud....etc
every time i will treat myself like i m the king in my own world....hahaha
being alone once in a while is a great experience...
it can relief myself from the tension world....although it's just temporarily
but it's enough for relexing :)

rather uncertain with what should i do with my hospital attachment.....
felt a little bit disappointed with discouragement from doctors who encourage me to skip attachment and go for summer holiday fun....and it's when i was keen to learn :(
i guess what they trying to convey is try to enjoy my student's life to the fullness before i start my hectic doctor's life :S

anyway...i guess i just prepared for the worse ever situation imaginable.

NO WATER

damn it!!! no water supply in hostel?????
i cant take bath after the long jog
no water for cooking, no water for washing, no water for everything!!!!
what else i can do with dirty smelly sweaty body?
can't lie on my bed for rest,
can't concentrate on my studies......
arhhhh......how to clean myself up?

damn!

mind ur language and words

languages are medium of communication, way of interaction... languages can break down the barriers, can close up the gaps.but it's also can lead to misunderstanding, conflict and confrontation if there is any misinterpretation. so beware with the words used.
not everyone can get along with the way u spoke...so, respect urself by respecting other as well.

狗咬狗，哈哈哈~

最近看见网路上很多骂来骂去，你咬我，我咬你的一些很有趣的posting....
想起来，原来大家只会把矛头对着别人。。。。你们是不是都忘记了这世界上还有镜子呢？还是都已经对垒得太忙了，没时间照照镜子。。。。好可怜、好忙碌、好可悲的生活。。。
希望你们早日得到解脱吧~~

time flies...

yeah....time flies without turning back :(
so fast my honeymoon cycle going to end by tmr....
what to do...this is the hectic life, especially for someone persuading medicine.....it's totally sucks to the most
after tmr i hv to wake up vy early in the morning, to catch a bus and travel more than half an hour to a hospital for classes...
what to do...we have our 'clinical' classes in hospitals
better stop complaining, ranting or whatsoever....just do my part as a medical student--->study!

jz got the update for my elective posting back in msia...pls la, give chances to those who enthusiatic in learning

damn!

i was soooo happy this evening.....thinking that i finally have my internet line back. while enjoying the refreshing internet service , it goes back to internet line down again just less than half hour(straight after the office hour). yet after times of reformat my comp...the 'unknown virus' still hunt me down, so sad
i have no idea how to clear it....it doesn't affect other system of my comp except the internet line....so weird~ i was wondering whether my comp been setup to prohibit from accessing to internet, but i still manage to online via wireless ISP.....
from now on i will be supporter of wireless ISP... waving goodbye to the money cheating lousy service providing ISP aka fakeweb.
damn....wasted my installation and monthly fee

i.....

i felt emptiness
i m blank
i wish to be isolated
i don't want any disturbance...
i want my own space
i want absolute silence
i just....... wanna be true to myself
i will be just fine :)

ENT cycle~

another new cycle...ENT stand for eat nose and throat. someone told me this cycle is needless to study, because the teacher will teaches all the way till the very last minute....oh yeah, this is a damn good news for me(since i really hate to study books)
but wait...i just had my 1st day for this cycle...it ain't that good for me :(

teacher is nice and kind enough to teach us patiently,trying hard to feed us with all kind of informative useful knowledge, and add some interesting funny story in between to make the class more cheerful.....sound very good rite?

the only bad thing is...she speak 98% in RUSSIAN LANGUAGE. imagine you are forced listening to unfamiliar language continuously for 3-4 hours WITHOUT BREAK or REST,( pls bear in mind, no closing eyes, no day dreaming allowed and you should stare at her all the time). it will squeeze your brain till dry to digest what ever she said,deplete your brainpower to the lowest level ever...... and i salute her so much for non-stop talking during long period without feeling tire or dry mouth..

the only thing we all did during our 1st class is to keep looking at watch and counting the time to go back home.....it's torturing man~~! we all just waiting for the magical words-->можно иди дамои!(you may go home) and rush back to hostel

aih~no choice...self study will work better for me

p/s..weather changed colder now...reaches below zero, sign of winter coming :S
it will be a colder winter

again disappointment....

what the hack r u doing?the internet connection was good for past 2 days but now it worsen,even worst than what i had before...damn it!!!
sometimes i cant even open my web pages after times of refreshing....
i totally disappointed with the way u provide service
empty promises n sweets feeding to us......what a shame on u!

barbarian act

currently facing some barbarians in my university, who are so 'chicken' and jealous of others' success...some medical students making such coward actions, what a shameless people.
What is the matter with you?stop hiding your bunny tails in the bushes and come out talk like a man!!

what a lousy thing!!!

just stopby here and release all the hatred generated after days of meaningless classes
currently having my tropical disease cycle....it's going to end soon next monday, thank GOD!!!
this is a quite important subject, yet she makes me feel so disappointed......
she just make the class so dull, so boring,so time wasting...so meaningless to us
answering on MCQs without knowing the correct answer at the end.....what's the point???
how to learn without knowing the mistake?
i wonder how a person don't teach, don't know how to answer students' questions capable to become a teacher, even giving lectures and publishing books.....hopeless~~~~
i hate it such much, but i can't do anything about it....
everything have to depends at own..self study!
better stop ranting and continue my work.