steps of my life journey

passion!

2011-03-02T22:28:00.003+08:00

haha....it has been long time since the last login into this blog....
i was wondering.....am i that busy to update my blog?
until certain extend...yes i m, and for some excuses, i m lazy as well, haha
not that i have no intention to update it anymore,
just.....i felt tire everyday after come back from work
i prefer to do something else....something which can relax my mind, my soul and my body especially

of course sleep is the best way for me, :D as i m always sleep deprived since the 1st day i started my work
blogging was always my favorites during my uni days.....not only writing a blog, but also blog hopping... i like to read other's blogs
but i dun hv much chance, or time now....too bad
it's always the passion which keep something on the track, keep it on the run...
any comment left will passionate me to keep my blog alive
and hopefully will make me work throughout the days :)

since after i start my work, i realised how important that we need to work smart rather than work hard...and to avoid any encounter with "snake" in your working field
haha...there will be endless story to talk about which will cost me countless time to write it here...

anyway, i m glad that i had successfully passed my surgical posting, currently having some fun with all the kids in the ward( except during review and procedure)
again this is a brand new environment and vast knowledge for me to absorb...
some 7 EOD calls awaiting me....aih

goin to 3 months..

2011-01-14T22:28:00.003+08:00

without noticing it...it's already going to be 3 months since i start working as a doctor..
how did i manage to pass these horrible days?
looking all my seniors one by one passing their posting accessment, soon will be my turn, so scary! wondering how i m going to do during my accessment

i started to felt a bit lost actually, loosing my determination, the soul n spirit to continue my journey
i started my work enthusiastically....day by day and after all the workload
my enthusiasm fade
what i gained after all these?
i get some simple knowledge and managements on pt
and of course i get my salary
but in other way i sense that i start loosing my health
been coughing on and off...sneezing uncontrollably....sometimes with watery eyes
i guess i m infected by some sort of virus...

life as a doc really ain't easy, it's far away from my imagination, not till the worst extend but i will never say i m enjoying this career at the moment
i believe the worst are there to train us up, and the best is always awaiting and welcome us for the enjoyments :)

2 months....

2010-12-18T17:02:00.003+08:00

almost working for 2 months...
and i learn alot during this period...
something we wont have the chance to experience during study days
i...
get to know someone who is helpful
get to know someone who is selfish
get to know how to avoid problematic cases
get to know how to solve problems/tasks assigned

this is not a happy working environment, according to most of my colleagues told me
but i know this is the task given to all of us,
we should try our best to make it a good place for all of us, shouldn't we?

let makes the great thing happens :)

after a month long

2010-11-27T15:53:00.002+08:00

hm......finally i get in touch with internet after almost a month long
yeah....i m back!
guess wat,
i had the worst time in my life experienced within this month(so far..hopefully there won't be any in future)
i had the most joyful moment, i guess most ppl will know it when they start working, especially after the 1st month :D
i had the toughest period ever....how did a consecutive 11 eod tag calls sound to u?
but i had friend did 13 eod consecutively.....salute her very much
i had learn to value a true friendship in a short period, very much appreciate it

there will be many more to come in the future, for good or bad, let brain wave for the best ever to come :)

here i come

2010-10-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

just know my posting hospital for next two years...
initially i was a bit uncertain about the location when i 1st open the letter, and i saw the Hosp Kajang.
it's my 3rd choice, bt my heart was telling me to go somewhere further since i wont stay back at home, so instead of kajang, why not go Sabah or Swk for more allowances and subsidies? money was the 1st thing come in my mind that time...i was so going to appeal for Sabah Hosp, but at last i didn't.
i m more calm by now, and decided to go with the faith. Kajang is not a totally strange place for me, i been there quite a long time ago for a competition back in secondary school days, and i had a pleasant experience, so why not now again?haha
wish me luck~

new chapter begins!

2010-10-12T16:11:00.003+08:00

just get my induction camp letter today...felt so excited as finally i got my call to start work after 'measuring land" for about 3 months...what a waste of time!
but now, lets just forget about it and all i need to do now is focus on my coming challenges
may luck always be with me, wish i will get the posting hospital i wanted for the next 2 years.....

where is my letter?

2010-10-06T22:08:00.002+08:00

waited more than one month since my interview day...more than 2 months since i pass up my complete documents in Putrajaya, yet until today i still waiting for my induction letter, still "measuring ground" in my home....
what can i say?.....sien:(

too much of graduates??!?! and perhaps less manpower for processing plus inefficiency of workforce made the wait longer....there's a long queue still :(
in conjunction with whole nationwide big celebration of Hari Raya....i guess some people still in Raya mode even till today

looking all my friends one by one getting their letter, starting to work, and some even already work for months, it doesn't feel good unless you are enjoying your holiday somewhere else

maybe they just want me to have another week of rest......
maybe i should take more time to brush up more knowledges
or maybe, there's no more space for incoming new houseman?

whatever, just hopeit will come in no time, although endless and countless frustrations cum scolding with anger will be on their way :S

a joke to share....

2010-09-26T22:25:00.001+08:00

no insult to anyone out there, just read thru n hv a laugh :)

I believe some people may have 'problem' with spelling words like physiotherapist, psychiatry, psychology, and whatever 'psycho.. at some time. Perhaps the following would help with remembering one of it ..

Physio was an intelligent boy. After doing a physiotherapy course abroad for 3 years, he returned home and set up a clinic in his hometown.

He asked a designer to make a new name plate to be hung on the walloutside the clinic. The next morning when he went to his clinic, he was pleased to find that the name plate was already put up but he was greatly annoyed by the wordings on the plate : TUKANG URUT. He went to

the designer and took him to task.

"How can you insult my profession? 'Tukang Urut' means masseur in Malay. I am a physiotherapist and not a masseur! Make sure you change the name right now! And see that the word is spelt correctly!" Physio said angrily.

The designer apologized and promised to make the changes immediately. Without further delay, he proceeded to change the name but found that the word "physiotherapist' was too long. So he broke it up into three words to make it easier to read.

The next morning, Physio hit the roof when he saw the new name. On the name plate were written : PHYSIO THE RAPIST

still waiting....

2010-09-24T19:09:00.002+08:00

after 2 months of waiting...i m still here waiting for my time to start work
never thought it would be so late...
i wished i have the eager to go back and learn...but seem like what i m doing now, more like time-wasting
arghhhhhhhh....
WHAT AM I DOING NOW????

do it!

2010-09-22T23:47:00.002+08:00

stop waiting and DO IT NOW!!

gathering....

2010-09-11T00:09:00.002+08:00

14 years ago...we graduated as a bunch of small kids getting ready to run on our track, heading towards different direction of life... without knowing that we might see each other again
14 years today.....under 1 unpredictable circumstances, we keep in touch again

tonite, i take out the long forgotten yearbook of my primary school, it looked so "old" now after i put it in the cabinet untouched for more than 10 years
there's some bookworms in it, those pages already turned yellow, luckily those words in it still remains
while flipping thru it, some of them i still remember clearly, some roughly...some, i have no idea,haha

glad that we still can meet each other after dismissed for such a long time
can't wait to meet you guys again after so long time
hope that we all will have a pleasant time together :)

POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

2010-09-09T19:41:00.000+08:00

Personality:

1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more
14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:

15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something good to others
17. Forgive everyone for everything
18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19. Try to make at least three people smile each day
20. What other people think of you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23. GOD heals everything
24. Do the right things
25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27. The best is yet to come
28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.

懒惰了。。。全都原形毕露

2010-08-29T18:24:00.002+08:00

还记得我回来那么久，我都不断的想，到低怎样才可以把屋子弄得比较好看
两个星期前。。。每天都努力的和妈一起打扫，当然哥哥和大嫂也功不可没
尽量把所有没用的东西都丢了
为了就是让它看起来比较整齐，比较像一个家
努力有了小许结果。
结果大家回来了
那几天，希望大家都过得还好吧，我已经尽力了
至少，那两天我还觉得像个家吧

可是。。。一切却复原了，才一个星期
又是一个乱七八糟的地方。。。。唉

blogging.....

2010-08-28T16:08:00.002+08:00

since the day i arrived back in malaysia...i become so reluctant to blog
not that i m very busy, all time packed with activites....no, no
but i m too bored...tired of boredom!
wish to get a part-time job somewhere...at least get some pocket money for ownself
i really felt uneasy whereby i still need to ask money from parents at this age
should hv become financial independent yet i still asking / begging money from them
aih!

how to make a better way?... i kept this thought in my mind all the while
just stay in house all day long doesn't make sense for me...
what i want is to make sufficient money to support my daily expenses

haih...how i wished to start work earlier nw :(
so many rants but no solutions

hello again~

2010-07-28T13:34:00.002+08:00

After a long journey, now i am back for this almost forgotten blog of mine.
With the recharged soul i came back to my motherland after a long 6 years studies abroad.

I heard a lot of suggestions from others : Why don't you stayed there? Do you want come over to Singapore? Where are you going to work? etc....
perhaps I might consider one of the option if my condition allowed me to do so, but just forget it at the moment as i already made up my mind to serve my home country. Maybe not the best choice ever, but still an acceptable option :)

on my steps to europe!

2010-06-28T05:10:00.005+08:00

hi fellows,
i wont be around for quite long until i come back from my europe trip...

Kiev - Frankfurt - Barcelona - Madrid - Porto - Lisbon - Milan - Venice - Kiev

all these places in jz 15 days....what an amazing race :S

happy graduation

2010-06-26T10:36:00.004+08:00

yeah...it's my day, my graduation day~

thanks kelvin and his GF for giving me such cute graduation present...haha
and thanks everyone for making my graduation a memorable event:)

here goes the end of my Uni life, and start of working life, gambateh everyone!!

finally a MD

2010-06-18T13:36:00.002+08:00

it's just a relieving end for me...everything goes smooth :)
after a long journey of 6 years, now becoming a doctor
life is never gonna be the same as student anymore
it's the end of one chapter, and also the beginning of another
challenges ahead waiting for me....
tough tasks, unbearable critics, vast knowledge, precise skills, and so on....
there will be strong determination to help me overcome all these hurdles
must have confidence, believe and faith!

tomorrow is the day

2010-06-16T17:40:00.002+08:00

exams day....doom day?
it would be terrify for me if i were back to 6 years ago, when i still used to the exams style back in malaysia...but now, if u know i still can blog 1 day before my exams, u might be able to guess how m i doing now,hahaha

it's still important,as a process to be a doctor, and i m still a bit worried for tomorrow result, although it's kind of 99% sure for passing.
still, there's lot of stuff to cover, alot more memory power neeeeeeded(temporary memory actually) for sudden gush influx of information just for few hours of exams and may be forgotten straight after exams,hahaha~sound like waste of time and energy for me

anyway, just go back to where i was and continue to cover all the topics, hopefully
pls pray for me if u r free, and congrats for those who successfully passed their exams

lesson 1

2010-06-15T00:01:00.002+08:00

why waste time on jealous or envy how good other people doing?
use your precious time to think how to make use of yourself better

望梅解渴，还不如自己挖口井。。以后都有水喝

学习

2010-06-13T21:49:00.002+08:00

人生是很复杂的，是吗？
有些东西刚开始一定觉得不习惯。。。
接着同样的东西不断的重复
到最后，不知是懒惰了，还是习以为常了
可能就会不把它当一回事把。。。你是否有同样的感觉呢？

这是一种学习吗？是好的？还是不好的呢？
要学习，
就要学好的东西
向好的榜样学习
全心全意地去学

好吧，好好的学习 :)

Anagrams

2010-06-08T21:01:00.003+08:00

it's anagrams, not anograms :p

found it from an interesting email...so just wanna to share it with everyone else :)

anyone is good in scrabble? try to have fun with all these

PRESBYTERIAN:
When you rearrange the letters:
BEST IN PRAYER

ASTRONOMER:
When you rearrange the letters:
MOON STARER

DESPERATION:
When you rearrange the letters:
A ROPE ENDS IT

THE EYES:
When you rearrange the letters:
THEY SEE

GEORGE BUSH:
When you rearrange the letters:
HE BUGS GORE

THE MORSE CODE:
When you rearrange the letters:
HERE COME DOTS

DORMITORY:
When you rearrange the letters:
DIRTY ROOM

SLOT MACHINES:
When you rearrange the letters:
CASH LOST IN ME

ANIMOSITY:
When you rearrange the letters:
IS NO AMITY
<>

ELECTION RESULTS:
When you rearrange the letters:
LIES - LET'S RECOUNT

SNOOZE ALARMS:
When you rearrange the letters:
ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S

A DECIMAL POINT:
When you rearrange the letters:
I'M A DOT IN PLACE

THE EARTHQUAKES:
When you rearrange the letters:
THAT QUEER SHAKE

ELEVEN PLUS TWO:
When you rearrange the letters:
TWELVE PLUS ONE

AND FOR THE GRAND FINALE:

MOTHER-IN-LAW:
When you rearrange the letters:

do u get it???

WOMAN HITLER

LOL~~

2/3 a doctor

2010-06-02T22:46:00.002+08:00

yeah~
u might be wanna ask...why 2/3?
what do i mean by 2/3?
actually it's jz nth much, to graduate as a doctor here..
1stly we have to pass our krok exam, which i did
then we will hv another 2 days for physical n oral examinations for 3 subjects each day
now...i already marched more than half way pass the door

i just realise, to graduate as a doctor from here is not difficult
but to practice as a doctor in life will be challenging....do u agree?

for a doctor gonna be out there, let face the challenges together~

美國最暢銷書-選狼還是選獅子?

2010-05-30T17:21:00.001+08:00

不管是經營企業或人際關係，本篇文章都能發人深省。美國最暢銷書-選狼還是選獅子?

上帝把兩群羊放在草原上，一群在南，一群在北。
上帝還給羊群找了兩種天敵，一種是獅子，一種是狼。

上帝對羊群說：「如果你們要狼，就給一隻，任它隨意咬你們。
如果你們要獅子，就給兩頭，你們可以在兩頭獅子中任選一頭，還可以隨時更換。」
這道題的問題就是：如果你也在羊群中，你是選狼還是選獅子？很容易做出選擇吧？

好吧! 記住你的選擇

解读。。请按

Law of Garbage Truck

2010-05-30T15:15:00.002+08:00

i like this post alot...it's copied from here

One day I hopped in a taxi and we took off for the airport.

We were driving in the right lane when suddenly a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us.

My taxi driver slammed on his brakes, skidded, and missed the other car by just inches! The driver of the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us.

My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was really friendly.

So I asked, 'Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!'

This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call, 'The Law of the Garbage Truck.'

He explained that many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment.

As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it and sometimes they'll dump it on you. Don't take it personally.

Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. Don't take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home, or on the streets.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take over their day.

Life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,

So ... Love the people who treat you right.

Pray for the ones who don't.

Life is ten percent what you make it and ninety percent how you take it!

Have a blessed, garbage-free day!

好一句~

2010-05-29T19:27:00.002+08:00

还要多和有幽默感的人交往，而不要总和爱抱怨的人在一起，因为他们的消极情绪会把你同化
we all need BLISS - Body-based pleasure, Laughter, Involvement, Satisfaction and Sex

do u agree?

we have passed~~

2010-05-22T06:57:00.002+08:00

yes...finally we all passed..
although there's yet official announcement, but everyone is celebrating outside

congrats too all my fellow classmates, friends and future colleagues, we all did some great job
all the best to whatsoever you all doing, let's face up the bigger challenges in our life

but pls don't forget, we still have some exams ahead...do prepare yourself for that :)

it's over~

2010-05-19T00:10:00.002+08:00

yes....finally it's over
no more krok,
no more rubbish english which makes me feel so retarded
everything is over
now,
i can only wait for the result...

lets pray for the best for everyone... :)

开心果

2010-05-12T23:41:00.001+08:00

已经好久好久了。。。。
对它的感觉。。。开始有点模糊了
还好，今天来了一个开心果
感觉回来了：）
笑容也回来了：D

时间不多了

2010-04-24T05:26:00.002+08:00

已经是四月尾了，还剩下不到三个月。。就要毕业回家了

回想一些当年离乡背井的画面。。。不仅让我叹息

光阴似箭。。六年一转眼就这样过了，留下在乌克兰的日子不多了

不过喜怒哀乐甜酸苦辣样样齐。。。可谓不妄此生？哈哈

再过不久，就是我人生的另一个开始

再过不久，我就是实习医生了

不过，现今最重要的是成功毕业，好不辜负父母多年来对我的期望

加油吧！好朋友们，好让我们一起毕业，一起做一个敬责的好医生：）

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF

2010-04-16T06:02:00.002+08:00

your achievements are determine by your desires that you poses
believe in who you are
believe in what you do
it's not a quirk of fate but it's strictly up to you!

inverse biological clock?

2010-03-23T06:47:00.002+08:00

becoming late sleeper lately...and feel myself more energetic in middle of nite...
perhaps i m gaining some energy from the moon light and star light??haha
good thing is i can study in the quite nite...
but bad things are i hardly wake up in the morning and keep myself awake in the class....damn!

but i wont care...that stupid so-cial med subject really making me sial! hahaha..i wont spend much time on that, i rather focus on smthg else,haha

had my summer europe trip ticket all booked....yeah~this enlighten my day :D
kiev -frankfurt - barcelona -madrid/ valencia? - porto -lisbon- milan- venice -kiev...... all in 13 days journey, sound rush n crazy huh?

wat to do, this is my last summer in my future 5 years of life, gonna pack abit for my budget trip
hopefully everything goes well :)

aih..the later i am, the more awake i be
tic tok tic tok....

krok krok krok!!!

2010-02-25T05:16:00.002+08:00

it's so torturous to study krok

i hate U!!!!
DAMN....i really hate wasting my time on this rubbish...why in the world we hv to down grade my brain to memorise it?
useless, rubbish with all the ukr-glish words, phrases n sentences...

this is for u

2010-02-20T03:20:00.002+08:00

You must be the change you want to see in the world - Mahatma Ghandi

i like this quote by Mahatma Ghandi.... frankly u cant expect someone else, especially someone close to u to be a better person while u keep doing the same old tricks.
Change to be a better person, in order to have all the better people around u

a good person will attracts good karma :)

happy day : early peek of valentines' gift :)

2010-02-10T22:28:00.002+08:00

haha...i got the cny and valentine card
so happy :)
although it's jz a simple thing, but it brighten up my day

thanks baobei,hehe

special thanks to PeiJen :)

2010-01-23T05:44:00.002+08:00

this is a post specially for you...Pei Jen
a friend which i met few times just last summer,
a friend i barely talk and chat with, yet feel good with :)
a friend who is unselfish, and broaden my perspective about others

thanks for sharing your knowledge with me all the while
thanks for encouraging me to do the right things which i might be given up without you
and thanks for your teaching,haha...though it's all about basic but guess what? people tend to make things more complicated and forget back to basic :P
and my route might be tougher and dull without you...thanks again

gambateh for your exams...and enjoy ur CNY to the fullness,haha

伴侣

2009-12-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

从别的部落格读到的，我蛮喜欢这几个句子。。。

“你需要的伴侣，最好是那能够和你并肩立在船头，浅斟低唱两岸风光，同时更能在惊涛骇浪中紧紧握住你的手不放的人。换句话说，最好她本身不是你必须应付的惊涛骇浪。”~ 龙应台《亲爱的安德烈》

当然，有谁希望自己的另一半是个惊涛骇浪的人呢？但愿我自己不会是其中一个吧

bye bye O&G, hello CID

2009-12-21T22:45:00.002+08:00

finally...end of my O&G cycle
finally, finished reworking all my missed classes and exam
finally...i can walk without crutches
finally...it's last week of my 11th semester

O &G

2009-12-11T21:17:00.004+08:00

having O&G cycle now...even with my right ankle sprained, i still want to go for class (the main reason is i don't want to have countless reworking classes)
so, finally we can have some chances to do VE and bimanual palpation, observed some abortions and even felt the curating movement......aih, when is my chance?

maybe i shouldn't be so rush, have to wait till my leg fully recover, then i shall get my chance...
still have plenty of time for me to get my chance.

is all the hardworks gonna pay off?

2009-12-03T06:28:00.004+08:00

i'ts quite hard decision...it's all lie upon me and i guess it's quite huge responsibilities....
it's kind of 1st experience for me, but i believe i can handle it well, as i have bunch of good and nice comrades around me, we have had fight all along the way until now, we started as nothing, but now at least we can come out with something, and hopefully with this something can bring many many things for all of us.
but so far did we heard any compliments?......anyone heard it? tell me if you do :)
what i heard are all backtalks, criticism, bad remarks.....are we able to get through it?
are all our hardworks going into drains? it's all depends on the response, and it tells me it's GOOD!

for anyone out there, pls have a look inside, try to see for what we had done so far before giving any comments. your concern is highly appreciated :)

trying to walk today...but still felt something unusual with my right ankle joint....aih

hoping too much...

2009-12-01T22:26:00.002+08:00

i guess everyone did that....when we want to have something desperately...we keep on hoping, making the same wish over and over again, repeating whisper in the heart for that particular 'thing'...
of course, it's very good if your wishes come true, but if it's not...who cares? will you those reading my blog will cares for what i didn't get? stop the non-sense, u and i know exactly the answer.
(maybe ur mum or your closed-one will cares, do keep some hope on this)

but in the real world...nothing comes by free, everything you have to earn with your hardworks. hope can keep you alive, but how to be alive...you have to work it out!

the power of 'HOW'

2009-11-28T17:28:00.003+08:00

this is a very nice question...'how'?
it helps to open one's mind..explore the unknown, to sail through the problems
no point of thinking what you don't know, but never keep your brain wake up to think how to get know the things you don't
no point of thinking you wanna get rich but never think of how to get yourself rich
no point of grumble and ranting over the frustrated job / situation but never think how to improve your preformance
no point to think where you wanna head to but you never know how to get there
and there is no way to save your patient if you never know how to do it....

can you spot the fracture?

2009-11-27T05:33:00.003+08:00

see, this is my leg after the POP (plaster of paris, the name sound so nice but actually it's ugly :P)
what to do...there's really a tiny fracture on my right ankle, and i guess immobilize is the only way to let it heal

luckily i still able to change my pant after this POP :S

this is my x-ray can you find the fracture?

火滚！！！

2009-11-25T18:44:00.002+08:00

@*#&*($&*@#^@&*$^*@$
塔麻德网吧但！！
我要去上课你却不让我去，不让我去上课也不给我放假。。
还要把我的脚抱到像的大象脚，然后要我跑来跑去讨假期。。。。去死吧！！！
简直是麻烦病人，玩残病人。。没用的东西！

Nick Vujicic

2009-11-16T07:16:00.003+08:00

have u ever seen him before? heard of this name before?....i bet u might never heard of it, but his story gonna make u remember for life, trust me....it's happen on me!
let see who is Nick Vujicic

he seems like a small, little, limbless, but his potential in life is UNLIMITED!

sprain ankle

2009-11-14T23:11:00.005+08:00

had my right ankle sprained yesterday after the basketball game, and it's swollen, becoming bigger and bigger :S

initially i thought it should be fine, coz i m used to all kind of strain injury. so i just took my 'tie da jiu' and massage myself. but the prognosis is not as good as what i thought..it get worsen over the night, i hardly slept with my swollen ankle, and i felt the tightness of skin around ankle, due to the swollen foot

and this is what i saw on my right foot this morning

swelling of my right ankle, u can see the hematoma just below the lateral malleolus

comparing both feet..one big foot and another smaller

from the side.....gosh i felt tightening of skin :s

from there on....i start to decide going to hospital for treatment. 1st i asked help from jeffrey. he suggested me to find Dr Kong for treatment, and here goes my 1st acupuncture of my life....

ouch!!!

another 3 more :(

there are total of 5 needles

as the result of treatment...the swelling slowly resolve, but it still painful, and there are some chinese medicine herb on my ankle under the bandage

here goes my weekend with injured ankle :(

p/s: acupuncture is never painful, i just add the expression :P spraining the ankle is much more suffering from that

hopefully everything will be fine by tomorrow...swelling resolve, recovery of sprain and i will be able to walk soon :)

1st shoot of absinthe

2009-11-12T09:32:00.003+08:00

heard of absinthe? yeah! i just get to know it last year, and only manage to try it out by yesterday night.
FYI...it's highly alcohol contain, around 60% or higher. it's something illegal elsewhere beside europe. U CAN ONLY GET IT IN EUROPE! (i got this from my friends...not sure it's true or not)

just get a shoot with 2 cubes of sugar, it smells like mint to me, then taste like.... some say it's listerine. U better try it urself, it can't be describe in words, at least with my level of english i'm unable to perfectly write it out, just give urself a shoot,ha~

it's great to have a try, but dun get urself drunk for it, just taste it :D

try to guess what else i did for the midnight?
haha~ i watch a horror movie alone in a dark room, without any lights and just with my laptop on....
my roomate was sleeping like dead body after the shoot,haha
and for the 1st time, i get shocked by a horror movie....that movie really scare me out :S
here goes my quarantine...watching movies till late night, which i suppose use for studing....
damn, i need some forces to push me for study.
it's very 'early morning' nw, and it's bed time for me...

not just another hindi movie...

2009-11-10T04:47:00.004+08:00

suppose to use my day wisely, intentioned to do some studies today, and yes i did some for my O&G this morning.....only this morning :( and still most of my times were spend on chit-chatting and watching movies, how am i gonna to continue my study plan with so many movies and endless series queuing up in standby line?? gosh~i just wish i and endless time as well for these :P

just watch a not that ordinary hindi movie. FYI, i rarely watch any hindi movie but this caught my attention. There are no crowd dancing, and singing (opss..still some nice songs in the movie, thumb up for the songs) the movie is about 2 and half hours long, but surprisingly i watch it non-stop until the end...
this might not be a true story, but i believe it's happening out there somewhere

ok..just stop the crap and let u all know the movie, let's see the trailer :)

it's advisable for those who don't understand hindu to get the subtitle, coz there's quite a number of conversation in hindu :)

moral of the movie: people do made mistakes, living a life full of hatred won't brings u any good
p/s: clue for a peaceful world--> forgiveness :)

day 1

2009-11-03T01:01:00.002+08:00

never been so aimless....
wake up in the early morning without knowing the time...switch on my comp, and browse throught LAN for movies....
i even forget what i took for my breakfast.....2 bananas??
look thru a textbook, nelson peads.....or should i say, staring?
nothing much progression....coz i m just staring, the info just hardly enter my mind :S
i guess i never logined to fcbk as frequent as today in my life time.....hahaha

seems like my 1st day is totally unmotivated......damn!
searching for motivation, any suggestion?
maybe i should read something else other than textbooks :)

it's confirmed....

2009-11-02T01:17:00.002+08:00

damn it...it's confirmed 3 weeks quarantine in simferopol
stay in my room and have movies marathon??
hm.....should be studies marathon for me....
maybe is good time for me to flip thru all the missed out pages

breaking news?

2009-11-01T05:01:00.002+08:00

just get some update from my roomate, that ukraine announced 1st h1n1 dead case, and another 20+ dead of unknown cases in western region of ukraine....wau!!!~~ sound terrible to me, as i m in ukraine...hopefully the deadly virus won't spread so fast to the isolated peninsular of crimea

another breaking news...maybe a good news for students. there will be declared holiday for all institute for 3 weeks, which means we no need go for school for 3 weeks? wondering what will i do for the long 3 weeks holiday.... hopefully i won't grow spiderweb,hahaha

and yeah, i finished shifting, decorating, modifying my new room. i guess this should be 100% done with my new room, and from this point on i may rest well, sleep well and.....lastly maybe study well also.

gosh...i should be busy typing for handup...
but guess what, i always did what i shouldn't do at the time. i should go for lessons, lessons for time management, lessons for prioritising daily tasks. back to the point, i never did all the 'do's :S

aih...i guess is better to go for bed at this time, my eyelids are dropping, urging me to sleep....

shift!

2009-10-20T07:22:00.002+08:00

shifting to my new room
progression of shifting : 85%

yeah, it's 2.30 am in the early morning...which i should have sleep like dead person, instead of blogging here :(
FYI...i just shift into another smaller room, which just beside my former room, all thanks to the 'berloved' commandant of my hostel, aih~~

but tomorrow morning i will have class.....damn, when will i finish move into new room?
yet to drill for my book shelfs.....argh!!!
some much things to do, and there is so little time for me...wonder why i still blogging here?
currently in deep hunger and deprived of sleep, and i started to feel my fingers are tremoring....
i should just go and sleep...nitez

嘟。。。嘟。。。嘟。。。

2009-10-17T23:53:00.002+08:00

好想打电话回家。。。
听听父母的声音。。。向他们问声好、讲讲近况
想督促他们去检查身体，了解及分享彼此的快乐时光

打给爸爸，嘟。。。嘟。。。嘟。。。
打给妈妈，嘟。。。嘟。。。嘟。。。
打回家里，还是嘟。。。嘟。。。嘟。。。

是我与世隔绝吗？怎么会没人接电话呢？
唉~
算了吧
那么多年都不打电话回家，现在想打去打不回，不孝！！

希望爸妈都安好吧：）

i m japanese alike??

2009-10-13T22:22:00.003+08:00

this is not the 1st time....
i was buying something in the market, then seller out of sudden asked me 'are you japanese?'
'of course i m not, i m chinese, do i looked like a japanese to u??' i answered.
'.....'that fellow just keep quite without saying anything else...

let me trace back my memory when was the 1st time i been asked as a japanese guy....

yeah, i guess it should be in the airport almost 5 years back, when it was the very 1st time i gonna travel away from my homeland to persuade my degree in a GOD forbidden land.
a newly met friend in the airport, just getting to know each other. i forgot how she asked me that time...but i felt funny when she asked and i do feel weird why she will ask that. haha

i do like some japanese or korean stars, but i never try to copy their styles, coz i only like female actors,hehe

although i been asked for not less than 10 time across these years. but for your information, i m a pure malaysian chinese :D

watashiwa en yuan deska !! arigato~~

midnight wondering.....

2009-10-09T05:12:00.002+08:00

suppose to study for tomorrow hometasks.....but this is what i end up with

i get stunted when i watched it....seriously, i open my mouth unnoticeably..
this is great, work of heaven :)

订单

2009-10-08T05:18:00.002+08:00

开始我的订单了。。。。
正面思考，坚决肯定、决不怠慢的对自己许下承诺
这个承诺，短期内可能不会实现。。。。。它，会是一个很伟大的承诺
对自己负责任，就是让这个承诺实现！

加油吧~~~

Girls Generation - hahaha MV

2009-10-04T21:40:00.001+08:00

like the way they sang it 'hahaha'...it brighten up my day :)
hope it can cheer up ur life as well

直落周末。。。

2009-10-02T22:23:00.002+08:00

好难得的一个周末。。。
但又排到满满了。。。火窝，paintball,bbq，生日派队。。。。。
每天都有精彩绝伦的节目，感觉上好累，好想歇一歇
第六年的生活，可真是多姿多彩。。。你应该不会相信我是最后一年的医学生吧
最近许多人都开始有点不舒服。。。得好好照顾自己了
没有家人在身边，唯有自己疼自己了

what an overloading dinner

2009-09-27T21:33:00.003+08:00

it has been very long time ago since the last time i overload myself with that huge amount of food into my stomach...i guess the filling level was up to the upper third of my esophagus, with slight compress on my abdomen all the stomach content might just regurgitate all the way back out...yew~~~~
i should pay tribute to the peristaltic force and the lower esophagus sphincter for keeping all the content stayed in stomach, phew~~ it was all digested this morning, come out as well. i guess it's time to clean up my colon...hmmmm

what to post??

2009-09-17T21:42:00.002+08:00

came back from oncology class...
finished my miss classes reworking
ate my brunch "roti + ba gua + cheese"
tried to do something with my laptop so that i can signin msn.....but failed :(
currently using meebo.com to signin window live messanger
wanna install window xp3 but without deamon installer...SH i need it fast!!!
was blogs hopping for whole afternoon..my favorite time passer :)
bt didn't find much interesting post...where are the wonderlands?? miss the gorilla's post,hahaha
was waiting for u..but only realise u probably went back hometown by tonight :(

going back to study soon perhaps??

回来了。。。

2009-09-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

不是不是。。。不是回去大马，而是回来乌克兰了
高兴吗？？？没什么好开心的
离开自己的家园，又有几个人会高兴呢？？？
看样子又要埋头苦干。。。就是嘛，有谁读医科可以轻轻松松的？？
这几天还要跑来跑去。。。有点累
没关系啦，最后一年了。。就当作是人生一段希奇的经验罢
加油吧!!!

虽然累，但我开心：）

2009-08-30T14:01:00.003+08:00

最近都在到处走。。。先去KL找朋友，回到芙蓉又继续找朋友聚会。
虽然到处走，但只要时间都是花的有价值。。。。再累都是开心的
和一班死党在一起，聊个天南地北，都是废话连篇，但大家都是不亦乐乎。。。许久没那么开心了：D
接下来几天会和家人去旅行。。。有点期待，希望有一个愉快、回味无穷的旅程

再过不久就必须回乌克兰了。。。。开始有少许依依不舍的感觉
离别，终是带着丝丝的伤感，尤其是离开亲爱与心爱的人

beautifully inperfect??

2009-08-28T00:48:00.003+08:00

how many of us can tolerate the imperfections of our love ones??
to get along with a person is not about how much u can love him or her, is how much u may tolerate with him or her :)

may GOD bless everyone have a nice day ahead

回家好吗？？

2009-08-26T17:23:00.004+08:00

几天来都没事做。。。闲在家里
或许该读些书吧。。。不然日子太无聊了。。。。《心灵鸡汤》或许是一个不错的书吧
一年从头到尾都埋头苦读那些医学书。。感觉太乏味了

今天被老爸子叫去帮忙。。。心理百般心不甘，情不愿
为什么我的假期就是这样。。。没有欢乐？每天就是这样这边忙、那边忙？？
为什么别人可以有那么开心、快乐与回味无穷的假期？
哎。。感觉有点命苦：（
哎。。为什么我会回家？？
心想：这或许是最后一次了。。以后做工了，都不知有没有机会回家呢！但心里头突然冒起一个念头，希望以后做工会去其它地方，东马？北马？哪儿都好，就是不要靠近家的！！会很幼稚吗？和自己的家斗气。。。。

最近有一些短短的片子。。由本地的人制作，满有意义的，得空都回去看看，支持本地制作嘛～～
这个蛮不错的。。我喜欢～

高兴吗？？

2009-08-25T23:43:00.002+08:00

今天应该高兴的。。。但我却没感觉一点高兴，奇怪？？
我的digital camera坏了，今天老爸子买了一个新的给我，不是什么新产品，只要可以拍照就行了。
心情有好点吗？。。。。。不，还是一样：（

心情不好。。我想或许又是因为某些事情，我也不知该镇么办好。。。。
感觉有点辛苦。。。虽然这是预料中的事，然而，还是觉得不习惯
该怎么办？？

有点奇怪。。。为什么我要烦呢？？是自己拿来烦吗？？
我可以就这样算了吗？？

病了一场。。

2009-08-23T21:15:00.003+08:00

过去一整个星期都在于病毒宣战。。。。。H1N1??不是啦~~
多怪自己搞什么特别，生日好地地的跑去taman pertanian malaysia玩 skytrex, 然后被雨淋得像落汤鸡。。。。照相机也被淋坏了，真‘衰’！！
这还不用紧，周末也没好好休息，继续跑东跑西。。。整个人累垮了才愿意回家

回到家好好休息的，哪知却发烧。。。。而且不是普通发烧，一下来、一下没，都不知它在玩什么(&#$*#^%@*&),弄得我没得好休息，隔了几天身体就莫名奇妙的起了许多红点，但烧却没了。

心里想：糟糕！！是不是得了骨痛热症？？没有关节痛，眼睛也没痛。。。。肌肉有一点酸痛，或许是几天前玩得太累吧。。。会是其他病菌吗？？还是去看医生比较好。

但我觉得，不看还好，看了反而觉得医生都是干吗的？？除了验血报告比较实际，其它时间，包括见医生时都是在浪费时间。病了那么多天，三天去见了三位不同的医生，没有一位有时间认真看我一下。。。或许他们认为只要是病人还清醒、可以讲话就可以比较随便吧。看见许多病人等了那么久，为的就是进去看医生以下（不是给医生看一下。。。因为医生没空看你一下，而是忙着写一大堆的繁文缛节）。原来当医生是那么的“崇高的”，许许多多人等了几小时就是为了见你一面。

还好，都是家里好。生病这几天有妈妈的照顾，病情当然好啦。没有发烧，小血板开始上升，白血球也正常了，可以放心了。这几天红斑也逐渐减少了。。。。不过呢，全身却开始有一点痒，奇怪~~！
不过，只要没头痛，呼吸正常，没呕吐拉泄，我应该是康复了：）

康复，是好事，但却要开始忙碌了。。。。。。加油吧！！！

沟通。。。。

2009-08-12T00:12:00.001+08:00

终于。。你和我可以坐下来，好好地谈了
这，是一个好的预兆吧~~
希望我们可以有更多这样的交流：）
也希望你会把今晚你说的话当真

broga hill

2009-08-10T20:48:00.007+08:00

have u heard of Broga hill?? it's becoming famous nowadays, more and more people is going there for a short but relaxing weekend trip :)
some says it's tiring...but for my it's just piece of cake,hahahaha
it takes about 30 minutes to go up there, 40 minutes plus if there's traffic jam (i refer it as long people queue) or 20 minutes if u run up there :D

ok...skip all the crap and let the pictures do the talk

moonlight from top of hill @0700 am

view from top
another view from top

awaiting sunrise...

bulan merdeka!! kami anak malaysia~

snap pic around while waiting for sunrise

crowded huh!!!

yeah...there is the sun~~~

goin off after sunrise :)

sorry for the poor quality of pictures...that's what i manage to get at the moment
hope u will enjoy ur trip there :)

不要！！！

2009-08-08T19:45:00.002+08:00

不要
不要
不要
不要
不要
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。
。
。
。
。
我不想再过这样的日子了。。。。
每次都是这边等一下，那边等一下。。。结果一整天就这样过去了，什么也没做到！
你要我当你的司机是可以，但请别把我当全值好吗？？
你需要我帮忙，我可以帮忙，但请你别全部自己都拿来做好吗？？
我的假期不该这样浪费的！！

家的感觉。。。。？

2009-08-02T22:52:00.005+08:00

这里是哪？曾经很熟悉。。。。但现在却陌生了
相信从来没有人会对自己的家以‘陌生’形容罢。。。。
已经有几年是这样了。。。。好久没感觉这里像一个家
到底是什么东西不对呢？犹记得以前我自己住的时候都不是这样的
为什么才离开几年。。一切都变得不一样了。。。。
好怀念小时候我的家那个模样。。。。它能复原吗？

尽我所能罢。。。毕竟我也不是长久的住客，我能发言吗？
要是能塑造回我以前的空间已经很不错了：）

influenze A H1N1 song....funny

2009-07-31T18:19:00.002+08:00

nothing much info passed via this song, just a reminder for taking care of personal hygiene, and of course for laugh,hahahaha

home alone

2009-07-27T21:20:00.002+08:00

being home alone....i guess not many people will like this way, rite?how many people can withstand loneliness?
but for me i enjoy my every chances being home alone....
do what ever i want, watching movies without distraction, listening to which ever music i like,switch on speaker aloud....etc
every time i will treat myself like i m the king in my own world....hahaha
being alone once in a while is a great experience...
it can relief myself from the tension world....although it's just temporarily
but it's enough for relexing :)

rather uncertain with what should i do with my hospital attachment.....
felt a little bit disappointed with discouragement from doctors who encourage me to skip attachment and go for summer holiday fun....and it's when i was keen to learn :(
i guess what they trying to convey is try to enjoy my student's life to the fullness before i start my hectic doctor's life :S

anyway...i guess i just prepared for the worse ever situation imaginable.

sick of being like this....

2009-07-22T22:38:00.003+08:00

this thing been sticking with me for pass a week....
i though i could get rid it all by myself...NOP :(
everyday it wakes me up...troubling me for whole day long.....
OMG....please let go of me k??
sick of being nose stuck, running nose and cleaning my nasal cavity all the time
some more i guess it's progressing now....oh shit!!! i felt like something in my left middle ear, and my throat start feeling itchiness......
please....i don't want to get sick at this time

now i m posted in seremban GH...hopefully can stick with some prof and learn something useful....hehe
god bless me pls...let me recover faster, let me learn more :D

分享空间~

2009-07-21T22:22:00.003+08:00

this post was copied from Taming the Monkey Mind

蔡英文：年輕人得培養跨領域的生存能力
作者:編輯部 2006.12.20／第362期

　「相較於我們，你們是幸福的，因為你們的老師都受過一流的訓練，」但是，「我不願意再過一次年輕人的生活，因為我蠻同情你們，你們的前途很坎坷，」行政院副院長蔡英文，在十二月一日《天下雜誌》於成大舉行的「實力，就是未來」校園論壇中，對著全場爆滿的學子們說。在科技如此發達的今天，當資訊的取得對大家都是既簡單又迅速，那麼年輕人的競爭基礎在哪裡？大學應給學生哪些必要的生存訓練？蔡英文誠摯地分享她的求學歷程：

　剛才來的路上，我在想，台灣的教育告訴我了什麼？

　在我們那個年代的台大，尤其是法律系，有德國教育出來的老師，有受日本教育的老師，也有美國回來的老師，每一個人都有不同的背景。他們的背景、表達方式、邏輯都不一樣。在這樣的教育環境下，我一直覺得做學生是件很痛苦的事情。

　我記得，畢業前最後一科考試後，有一個同學從後面趕上我，說「蔡英文，我今天報仇了。」我問他為什麼？他說「平常老師講的我都沒聽懂，今天我的考卷他一定看不懂。」這一句話，真的道盡了我們大學四年。

　回想大學四年教了我什麼？我都不太記得，但是我的老師們至少教了我一件事情，那就是當你不懂的時候，要怎麼去求生存。

　相較於我們，你們是幸福的，因為你們的老師都受過一流的訓練，他們的思考比較有系統，教育也有系統。可是，我發現你們年輕人正在喪失一個必須的生存能力。你沒有辦法在一個複雜的邏輯網絡裡面，去釐清跟處理一件事情。

　外面很多事情，不是學校裡可以學到的。外面的世界變得很快，你今天四年所學到的東西，很可能當你畢業時，就已經過時了。

想不想再過一次大學生活？

　我常常問我自己說，到底想不想再過一次大學生活？跟各位很坦白的說，我不想再過一次那樣的生活了。

　我記得小時候念書，常常聽不懂別人說什麼。後來我發現，在學習過程中，每個人領受的能力，就像天線一樣。你的頻率不一定跟老師的頻率一樣。你常常會聽不懂，所以就必須調整。最寶貴的學習過程，是那個調整的過程，而不是你記得老師告訴你什麼。

　當年念法律系，會發現每一個問題的解決辦法，一定有甲說，乙說，跟丙說，甚至到丁說。但是在現實裡，只有三說，就是肯定說、否定說、跟一個調和後的學說。妥協，不是犧牲原則。

　其實在人生裡，很多問題都是妥協說。妥協，不是犧牲原則。很多人把妥協跟犧牲原則劃上等號。如果你是這種態度的話，那你的日子會很痛苦，而且呢，你沒有辦法解決事情。因為只要是人，思想一定會不一樣，會有衝突。這個時候，就必須要經過協調的過程。

　我們以前去談判時，有些年輕代表為了表示他是意志堅定的，一開場就說「這是無法妥協的！」我會跟他講說「那你今天來幹嘛？」如果問題要解決，你就要妥協。

　我不願意再過一次年輕人的生活，因為我蠻同情你們，你們的前途很坎坷。因為現在的科技非常發達。

　這個世界好像沒有去不到的地方，或接觸不到的東西。好像什麼都能靠電腦幫你解決。然後之後呢？之後你們的日子會很難過的。當資訊的取得對大家都是簡單的、及時的、而且是迅速的，那你的競爭基礎在哪裡？

　我在康乃爾大學念書的時候，常到圖書館書庫裡找判例。找到那一剎那，你會有種虛榮感，因為你跟這麼多書本在一起，而且你可以處理這些書裡的知識。

　可是今天，你只需要進到資料庫，輸入關鍵字，電腦就可以幫你做到了，甚至連那個評析它都幫你找出來。那你拿什麼跟人家競爭呢？單單知道怎麼去取得資訊，是不夠的，這些已經是基本條件了。

　你們這個世代比我們這個世代辛苦，如果你要面對競爭，有些是基本條件。

　第一，你必須能夠「運作」，而且是在跨國界的情境裡運作。

　將來你會發現，你所工作的環境，無論是坐在家裡也好，或是在辦公室，你的情境，其實已經是跨越國界了，有時候更是跨越時空。你必須要讓自己在不同的文化、不同情境的互動裡，都能夠自在。

　當你跟一個英國人講話時，你要用他的文化角度、他的語法，跟他講話。當你跟美國人講話時，用他的腔調、他的邏輯去講。

　我曾經在兩個星期裡飛完世界一周後，空中小姐問我要吃什麼，我想了半天，跟她要兩種東西，一個叫可口可樂，另一個叫做泡麵。

　今天我們腦袋裡，已經是有東方，也有西方的東西。對，我們已經生長在一個混合的環境裡。但是最重要的是，不能喪失你的歸屬感，因為要有歸屬感，你才能在全球自在地遊走。

　第二，各位要的是什麼能力呢？我這裡寫的是「跨領域」。這是我們大學改革中最重要的方向，大學教育必須要是跨領域的。

　在上一個世紀，很有可能三、四代，甚至百年的家族都做同樣的工作。但是各位同學，你大學四年念完以後，很有可能第一個挫折就會出現，因為你找不到工作。

　為什麼找不到工作？因為你的訓練，跟社會的需求，已經脫節了。等你工作了一陣子後，你可能又要失業，因為現在做的工作，已經沒有了，你必須要換很多工作。

　我們的教育出了什麼問題？我們是不是在教育中，給學生太多面對社會所不需要的知識？我們給知識，而沒給他必要的生存訓練。

　我們需要不同領域的訓練，不需要每個領域都深入，但是每一個領域都要涉略。而且要有自己組織這些知識的能力，把它轉化成自己吸收的、分析的、思考的系統。

　我記得在美國念法律時，老師每天進來教室，就說我們今天要討論六個判例。「某某同學，你告訴我們這些判例在講什麼？」然後他會繼續問，問到答不下去，就換另外一個人答，問到所有的人都答不下去時，就下課了。

　老師從來沒有給過我們答案，每次下課後，我都會問旁邊的同學說「那答案是什麼呢？你要自己去找答案，把自己救出來。

　第三，你需要的是「溝通能力」。現代人最重要的就是溝通，為什麼？因為通訊科技太發達了。

　在老的時代裡，你寫信，一封信從寫好、寄到，然後對方再回信，可能要好幾天，或好幾年。可是今天，上網就好了，每次都是立即發生的，馬上問、馬上答。

　換句話說，你必須在很短的時間裡，很精確的掌握你的語言，掌握情境。更重要的是，很精確地掌握對方的心情，和他的想法。

　一個會溝通的人，不是天天講話的人。通常那些比較安靜的人，才是會溝通的人，因為他知道怎麼觀察你，知道你心裡在想什麼，知道怎麼回答你是最有效的。溝通考驗的是你的同理心、感受能力，還有你表達自己的能力。

要了解人性
　那麼，要怎麼做一個有同理心的人呢？最重要的是，要了解人性。不論你未來做軟體或硬體設計，或者是醫生、做廣告、行銷等等。最重要，最重要的一件事，就是你服務的對象心裡在想什麼。

　所以各位同學，文學作品還是要看，我也不反對你們看韓劇，無論哪一種都可以看，因為它代表的是不同的感受，不同表達的方式。把自己放到他的情境裡面，當你在他的情境裡面，你會怎麼樣做反應？你的感受是什麼？

　最後，這裡我加了一個字，叫做「熱情」。如果你沒有熱情，你可能喪失將來再往前走的動力。

　我忍不住要再放一個字，就是「好奇心」。好奇心就是你要對很多事情都感興趣，但是不要好管閒事，不該管的事情不要好奇。好奇心跟熱情一樣，都是你往前走的動力，如果沒有這兩樣特質的話，你的人生是很枯燥的，沒有動力。

　回到原點，各位同學，前面的日子會愈來愈困難。外面的世界，是更複雜的，很多時候不是對與錯的問題。很多時候你沒有辦法分辨，但是這終究是你必須要面對的一個人生。

　當你面對人生的時候，千萬要冷靜。有時候你會喪失信心的，但是喪失信心也不是一件壞事。喪失信心的時候，你要問自己問題出在哪裡？只有在喪失信心時，你才會去質疑事情，才會進步，這些都是你將來再往前走的動力。

　當你再回頭看你坎坷而具挑戰性的一生時，或許你們會認為，你們的人生比我們的更有趣。

i m home!!!

2009-07-03T21:22:00.002+08:00

yeah~~...i m officially home nw...bt just for few days
after this week i gonna have my hospital attachment in sg buloh hosp for next 2 weeks
after that will come back seremban for rest of my summer holiday...
yeah!!

it's a very hot summer..

2009-06-27T20:45:00.003+08:00

just finished all my papers yesterday, thereby my summer holiday started officially..... and there is nothing more relaxing and enjoying than sitting down comfortably, tasting sweet cooling ice-cream while watching movies.....haha

sound a little bit bored as this is just after exams...maybe i should just went out have some fun, do some crazy stuffs and release all the stress accumulated ages ago...yeah~should have gone out, but of course not immediately as i still have to restore back my energy after long exhausted exam period

it's very hot summer now...the sun is burning up every single inch ground on this poor earth, maybe not the entire earth, but the place i stay now is currently hot like hell...god bless my friends who will stay during their summer holiday in simferopol...i have no idea how they can survive the heat. what would if i m granted with a wish...my answer will be definitely a cooling air-conditioner if i were going to stay here during summer period

had a nice chit-chat with my best friend this afternoon...it was superb and we had some happy moments. glad that the exams are over, and we all are going back malaysia soon....here i come~~~
and lastly.....hopefully h1n1 virus wont find us all during the whole journey back to malaysia :)

c ya guys back in malaysia

father's day~

2009-06-20T23:44:00.003+08:00

dear ba,
thanks alot for ur contribution all the while,
u have build house, and provide us home gave us a lovely family.
u gave us protection, provide us shelter, and showering us with ur fatherly love
thank you ba~

happy father's day

good luck~

2009-06-07T02:13:00.002+08:00

i guess everyone taking exams in next following few weeks need this more than anyone else...
the luck will determine ur exams result.....so 'play' hard with ur examiners,hahahaha

will be officially finish my 5th year of medical student life in just another 20 days,
come on...wish me luck :D

happy birthday mum~~!

2009-05-31T01:52:00.002+08:00

to the dearest and best mum in the world,

sorry for the past which i behaved rebelliously and didn't do my role as a son well enough
sorry for my incapability to stay beside u, care of u when u need ur son
sorry for being unfilial, unable to kept my promises and hurted u so much
sorry for not calling u for the last mother's day.....
sorry for any mistake i did in the past
i m so sorry mum, and i miss u alot~

i promised to make u a b'day cake long time ago, but i haven't deliver this promise......

my sincere wishes to u...
happy birthday mum~
stay healthy, happy and smile always :)

in the midnight....

2009-05-28T05:08:00.004+08:00

wau.....now only i realized i have abandoned my blog for some time
the previous post was....OMG, 11 days ago
i missed out some replies...sorry guys, i was kinda busy lately.
not actually sticking my nose into books and notes....instead wondering here and there, watching britains got talent semifinals and listening to yiruma(this is a korean link, sorry guys)....both buzzing in my head constantly.
they are not irritating, yet i'm quite enjoying with them...just i guess the timing isn't that right then.
still have stack of notes to study, and time is running out....gosh~~~!and i'm still blogging here.

what to do...i hate boredom, and blogging is one of the best way for me to express myself, de-stress, and relax.
hm~~ should have rest earlier coz tomorrow gonna have another autopsy...
corpse and forensic are not my interests, just somehow we as medical students had to learn this :(
by the way, experience of cutting dead people maybe just once in the life time...u dare to try?

ExamZzzzzz

2009-05-17T14:30:00.002+08:00

i believe this is the word most students hate about...
endless exams just like ton of stones pressuring on our shoulder
what to do..this is the student's life, get thru it!!!
time is running out, better catch up fast
why i added 'Zzzz' at the end there? coz all the study materials are super NARCOTIC

hahahaha

NO WATER

2009-05-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

damn it!!! no water supply in hostel?????
i cant take bath after the long jog
no water for cooking, no water for washing, no water for everything!!!!
what else i can do with dirty smelly sweaty body?
can't lie on my bed for rest,
can't concentrate on my studies......
arhhhh......how to clean myself up?

damn!

somewhere in simferopol.....

2009-05-11T04:04:00.009+08:00

It's a sunny day..we are so glad it's sunny day as 2 previous day was rainy. accompanied by the sun on top of us, it brighten up our day and makes our mood lighter :D
i took some pics and random shoots....

before walking to the bbq spot

cheeers~~happy gals

it's about 15-20 minutes walk up the slope

seems like endless long way up

again....gonna up some more :S
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patient la....here comes some nice view

we had the whole panoramic view of Marino, the reservoir dam, some houses, trees etc

me in the shoot :)

after some photo shooting...it's time to set up the fire before the hunger hunt us down.
well~ i just skipped that part as i have no intention to post about the foods and ways we ate......hahaha, lets get back to some other pictures

see this little yellow flower?

it's scatter everywhere over the hill....so yellowish~

it's not over yet......

try to imagine what a bunch of guys will do after filled up their stomach?
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tada!!!!!!!
over-boredom :P

now i understand why my extreme surgery teacher said there will be more cases of fracture during spring-summer time.....@.@"

i always wanted to jump high into sky!!!
some more with different poses~
finally conquered!! haha

as u can see the weather is changing from the pics....cloud approaching from no where out of sudden and spoiled our mood. Crimea weather change every second, just like gals( sorry, no offense to any gals out there but this my own experience)

this is what we spotted during the way back down hill, do u see anything there?

yeah, it's a squirrel~
it's cute, isn't it?

温柔的双手

2009-05-10T05:18:00.000+08:00

又是感情流露的时刻
犹记得每一年的离别聚合，您的眼眶都会含着泪水
离别时，您会每天担心我独自在国外的日子，千万吩咐我要小心，要照顾自己
聚合时，您会开心得祝我平安归来，依旧的无微不至的呵护我。
记忆中，
您时时刻刻都为了我们兄弟姐妹辛劳。。。
不计回报，默默付出。
长大后的我们都聚少离多，各怀大志、各奔东西
惟您还是盼望我们哪天会倦鸟归巢
天天为我们准备好最温暖的被窝、最舒适的。。。家
您的双手，就是我们温暖的泉源

妈，母亲节快乐！~

anyone would like to speak for the doctors??

2009-05-05T23:02:00.004+08:00

copied this entire article from confession of a medical student , which i would like to share with anyone out there

Doktor cuma 'berdiam' bila rakyat kritik khidmat mereka

Oleh AZMAN ANUAR
rencana@utusan.com.my

PENDEDAHAN berhubung isu penemuan dua doktor di Jabatan Kecemasan Hospital Kuala Lumpur (HKL) 'mencuri tulang' oleh Timbalan Menteri Wilayah Persekutuan, Datuk M. Saravanan sedangkan lebih 20 orang pesakit masih menunggu dalam kesakitan - memang menghangat.

Susulannya, pelbagai pihak lain turut mendedahkan versi pengalaman dengan doktor di hospital kerajaan. Semua doktor hospital kerajaan telah dicemuh oleh masyarakat.

Tetapi akhirnya lain pula cerita sebenarnya. Dua doktor yang dituduh curi tulang itu sebenarnya doktor pelatih yang baru habis bertugas sejak hari sebelumnya. Bilangan pesakit yang menunggu hanya lapan orang (selebihnya ahli keluarga yang menunggu).

Inilah bahana apabila membuat tuduhan tanpa usul periksa. Tidak rasa sedih dan terhinakah doktor dituduh sedemikian. Sedangkan kita tahu mereka bertugas dengan dedikasi, merawat pesakit berbilang kaum tanpa jemu, bekerja siang mahupun malam tanpa hirau penat dan lesu - tiba-tiba dituduh secara melulu sedemikian!

Jika ada pun doktor yang bersikap 'curi tulang' jangan dibuat andaian semua doktor begitu. Tempias nama buruk terpalit kepada institusi hospital kerajaan.

Pada hakikatnya ramai doktor masih bertanggungjawab dalam menjalankan tugas.

Sebagai rakyat Malaysia, mungkin kita pernah menjadi pesakit di hospital mahupun di klinik-klinik kerajaan.

Soal menunggu lama adalah lumrah kerana kita maklum jumlah pesakit yang ramai. Cuma sikap sewaktu memeriksa pesakit perlu dilakukan dengan penuh dedikasi - bukan menunjukkan reaksi kurang selesa dan kurang berminat untuk merawat pesakit.

Pun begitu, kita percaya masih ramai doktor yang komited dengan tugas mereka. Mungkin hanya satu dua orang sahaja yang tidak beretika dan sanggup mencalitkan lumpur kepada nama baik hospital.

Doktor dan pembantunya, jururawat telah diberi kursus dalam membentuk etika yang baik sewaktu bertugas. Mereka tahu cara untuk berhadapan dengan jumlah pesakit yang terlalu ramai termasuk melayan pelbagai kerenah pesakit.

Petugas di hospital kerajaan harus memberi layanan terbaik kepada setiap orang tanpa mengira status dan kedudukan. Jangan kerana pesakit terdiri dari golongan kurang mampu dan ditempatkan di kelas kedua atau ketiga, mereka dilayan bagai orang yang tiada perasaan - diherdik dan ditengking sesuka hati.

Profesion doktor cukup mulia. Tetapi naluri manusia sentiasa mahu dilayan dengan cepat dan tidak sabar jika terpaksa menunggu lama.

Perkara ini dilalui oleh para doktor. Bilangan doktor tidak pernah bertambah. Seorang rakan yang memilih bidang ini pernah meluahkan 'tidak ada masa yang cukup' untuk mereka.

Ada masa mereka terlepas waktu makan tengah hari. Kalau mahu ke tandas pun perlu bergilir-gilir. Perkara-perkara seumpama itu adalah biasa bagi seseorang doktor.

Namun, kita belum lagi mendengar doktor menjerit marah kerana kepenatan. Belum pernah kita lihat mereka memberontak dan mogok tidak mahu merawat pesakit.

Kita pun tidak pernah melihat para doktor berpiket menuntut hak mereka. Tak dengar oun mereka meminta dihargai. Sebaliknya mereka terus bekerja penuh dedikasi siang dan malam tanpa jemu merawat pesakit.

Sebenarnya tidak ramai antara kita sedar bahawa waktu bila doktor bekerja. Mereka memulakan tugas sebelum pukul 8 pagi, dan jika on call kena bertugas hingga 36 jam.

Banyak masa mereka korbankan untuk pesakit daripada bersama di sisi ahli keluarga, ibu bapa dan anak-anak.

Mereka tidak pernah merungut tentang gaji. Tidak ada siapa antara kita yang serius memikirkan soal menjaga kebajikan doktor.

Sekarang, amat jarang pesakit atau waris pesakit yang mengucapkan 'terima kasih' kepada doktor. Sebaliknya ada pesakit yang berani menghentak fail ke atas kepala doktor semata-mata kerana tidak diberi cuti sakit.

Tetapi doktor hanya diam, senyum dan meneruskan kerja. Bukanlah bermakna mereka tiada perasaan. Sebaliknya mereka dididik dan dipesan untuk bersabar dengan semua kerenah pesakit.

Jangan kerana desakan sesetengah pihak berkepentingan tertentu, mereka ini dijadikan mangsa dan bekerja dalam tekanan. Kelak ia hanya mendatangkan masalah kepada diri doktor, keluarga dan pesakitnya.

Mulai hari ini dan mengambil semangat baru sempena Hari Pekerja semalam, eloklah kita ringankan mulut untuk mengucapkan terima kasih kepada setiap doktor yang merawat kita

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please allow me to voice out my humble views
i believe most doctors still hold firm to this quote "1st do no harm".....
we are not any robotic machine nor computer-cyborg....we just like any other human being, same as our beloved patient; we need rest, we need caring and love, we will fall sick as well....
we are passionate to be a doctor, but that doesn't mean we should be treated less than a human. life are precious and priceless, everyone knew that and i believe each hospital staff will work their best in surviving every life..
or maybe i m sound naive in this complicated world? correct me if i m wrong :)

i m growing.........

2009-05-04T01:22:00.004+08:00

growing in height?...i wished it's still happen on me :(
in term of wisdom...of course i'm gaining some wisdom each and everyday, i learnt everyday :)
in term of age, every person on this earth is growing older day by day then...
so...perhaps u might be wondering what i wanna talk about in this post..
actually i realise myself is growing for the past few weeks.......... in horizontal way

OMG~~~! never had myself feeling of being fat like this before..and there gone my 6 packs abs :P
my waist is bigger, pants are more tight,
my tummy is bigger and rounder than ever i felt before.....oh shit!!! it's like 3 months pregnant!
sometimes i was wondering something growing inside my abdomen?....nah, it cannot be, no obstruction, compression and neoplasm signs on me.
could it be intestinal hypertrophy? due to overload of foodstuffs and fluid inside.....but i defecated normally everyday. so what's the problems?

i should blame on the recent heavy meals and lack of execises.....and also cold rainy weather which keeps me stayed indoor, and sleep/sit whole day long.

'come on...get ur butt of the chair and do exercises~'

hard work to reduce my tummy :
bumping 100 per day
sit up 50 per day
stretching 20 min per day
mb will add jogging 2km...
aih, depends on my left feet which currently sending warning impulses to me for overusage :S

A Brilliant Conversation

2009-04-28T23:25:00.003+08:00

read it from forwarded mails from my friend, and wish to share with u all. maybe it will enlighten ur day :D

Subject: A Brilliant Conversation/ must read to finish

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with GOD, the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand and...

Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
Student : Yes, sir..
Professor : So, you believe in GOD?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD good?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent)

Professor : You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from?
Student : From...GOD.. .
Professor : That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil?

(Student did not answer)

Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who created them?

(Student had no answer)

Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you. Tell me, son...have you ever seen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn't...

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)

Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as Cold.
Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat. We cannot Measure Cold. Heat is Energy. Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

(There was pin-drop dilence in the Lecture Theatre)

Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?

Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light... But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, Darkness isn't. If it is, you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?

Professor : So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student : Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and
Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.
Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?

Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the
argument was going)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor, Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?

(The Class was in uproar)

Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?

(The Class broke out into laughter)

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?... No one appears to have done so. So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The Room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)

Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir...Exactly!

The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.

NB:

I believe you have enjoyed the Conversation. ..and if so...

You'll probably want your friends/colleagues to enjoy the same... won't you?
Forward them to Increase their Knowledge... or FAITH.

That student was ALBERT EINSTEIN.

魂游？？

2009-04-27T02:05:00.003+08:00

哎~~为什么人类会有思想。。。。。。这是一件好事么？？？
如果往好的方向出发。。。那应该是好事吧。。。
但为什么都会有消极的念头？
如果可以开开心心。。。每天都是春天；花儿朵朵开；鸟儿自由飞，那是多么的美好的瞳景
做人真地可以那么悠闲、没有烦恼吗？？
最近都在游魂。。。心不在焉。心烦？？身忙？？
好希望自己可以轻松轻松。。。。
烦少一点，忙少一点。。。专心读书，保健身体
自己掌握不了的东西就让他顺其自然吧。。。想到脑袋破了它也不会为你改变的。
世界在转，时间在走，日子要过。。。安求无忧无虑开心过日子。
要好好加油~ ：）

mind ur language and words

2009-04-22T18:17:00.004+08:00

languages are medium of communication, way of interaction... languages can break down the barriers, can close up the gaps.but it's also can lead to misunderstanding, conflict and confrontation if there is any misinterpretation. so beware with the words used.
not everyone can get along with the way u spoke...so, respect urself by respecting other as well.

blogging fever?

2009-04-22T06:07:00.002+08:00

some sort of "blogging fever" heavily infected 2 my group mates.....anyway, the blogger sphere is for everyone...free for all. i hope there will be some sort of funny and hilarious stories come from them,hahaha

pls welcome the new comer to the blogspot(but actually they are more experienced than me in blogsphere, just they halted some time ago and reactivate recently)
silver dragon and gorilla
btw....another blogger of my group will be the president
may they keep up with their good work and bring more joy to the group :D

一波未平；一波又起

2009-04-08T04:17:00.002+08:00

还记得上一两个星期在网路上闹得轰轰热热医学新生的无能。。。。本地与海归派双方面都骂来骂去，你说我不是、我说你不对。。。公说公有理；婆说婆有理，真的是百口莫辩，有理说不清！

与其斗个你死我活，不如作一些对自己有益，又能为大家贡献的东西，这样好吗？？

为了自保也好，为了生存也好。。还是为了大家也好，只要是好的东西，实际的，行得通的。。。为什么不打开双手欢迎呢？相信我们大家都很努力着为自己的未来、为自己的前途拼命。好的东西会拿取来分享、有问题大家一起检讨、行不通的东西修改、坏的东西删掉。。。。那不实际的呢？还是别浪费时间物力与金钱罢~

天下没有东西是完美无瑕的。你自己的一套，未必是大家都能接受的那一套。许多东西都是需要修改、检讨后才能变得更好、更完美。如果有人告诉你直走会撞壁、会受伤，你该骂那个人吗？？如果不能接受大众的意见，是不是少了大将风范呢？要成为大将或首领，就必须要能伸能鞠、要泰山不让土壤。不能接受意见但要讲人是非，还要骂给你意见的人，非君子也。

狗咬狗，哈哈哈~

2009-03-28T05:16:00.002+08:00

最近看见网路上很多骂来骂去，你咬我，我咬你的一些很有趣的posting....
想起来，原来大家只会把矛头对着别人。。。。你们是不是都忘记了这世界上还有镜子呢？还是都已经对垒得太忙了，没时间照照镜子。。。。好可怜、好忙碌、好可悲的生活。。。
希望你们早日得到解脱吧~~

born to be abandon?

2009-03-27T02:11:00.003+08:00

been long time never update my blog, recently was busying with my children infectious diseases cycle....it's tough, alot to study, alot to memorize, a little to relax, no time to enjoy and to be lazy. :(
my daily life is like: wake up at 6 in the morning, go to class in hospital, come back around 2-3 pm, stuck my nose between books again after resting for awhile, and continue reading after my dinner......until go to bed around 12 midnight.

i guess some will say this might be the easiest life if compare to them, while...for me it would be like hell if i can't have enough sleeping time...that's my precious moment to recharge and rejuvenate myself. now i just felt myself is getting older, maybe due to everyday interect with young cute little naughty kids...the big contrast between us(me and the young patient) makes me feel like throwing away everything and go back to become a small child once more, but in reality there is nothing like Benjamin Button happens...

i guess some babies are cursed..they are not only abandoned, yet some of them are suspected HIV +ve......poor little life just come to this world to suffer. i m such a lucky person on this earth, living in such nice condition blessed with parents and siblings and friends, and sometime i still will grumble for some tiny matters...and which makes me feel like i m not grateful, not appreciative to what i had.....
sometimes we just need to look around, and u will realise u r no longer the unlucky person, but u having much more better life than others.
maybe these simple words can't easilly enlighten u who reading this, but it will remain in my blog and remind me always to be grateful :)

p/s: an apology to jeffrey K for what i said out in class to u, maybe u din hear it, but just want to let u know i din mean it. i thought i was joking but only after that i realise i had cross the line..so sorry

a busy friday...

2009-03-21T00:43:00.004+08:00

usually friday is the most exciting day for me. because after today's class, i can free my mind, enjoy my day doing whatever i want...watch movies, sleep like pig, or just hang out with friends chit-chatting...i will spend my whole day in a relaxing way....just to release all tension and madness accumulated for whole week...but it's not for today.

i had a rather rush afternoon, rush for 1 minute shopping and then rush back for lecture. after lecture had to prepare a dish for tonight dinner....everything was done in a hurry. i know myself well that i'm not good in preparing any nice dish, so i just simply create something, it was a mistureof egg tart n apple pie repcipe, this is what it's look like :

tada~~

using the crust of egg tart, and some unknow ingredient with sugar for the apple part
this is what i so called--->apple tart :P

arg...the fillings looks like fried potatoes, but actually it's baked apple :P

well, the look is just normal...bt the taste, will let u guys know later,haha
tell u all in prior, i get compliment for it's smell,hahahaha~~~~ coz it does smell good :P

spent almost my whole afternoon doing this...nearly 3 hours
gosh~! i could have better rest with that amount of time, but i guess it's worthwhile to make it, as we all will enjoy tonight b'day dinner. btw, happy b'day to u, jennie~~

time flies...

2009-03-12T01:49:00.004+08:00

yeah....time flies without turning back :(
so fast my honeymoon cycle going to end by tmr....
what to do...this is the hectic life, especially for someone persuading medicine.....it's totally sucks to the most
after tmr i hv to wake up vy early in the morning, to catch a bus and travel more than half an hour to a hospital for classes...
what to do...we have our 'clinical' classes in hospitals
better stop complaining, ranting or whatsoever....just do my part as a medical student--->study!

jz got the update for my elective posting back in msia...pls la, give chances to those who enthusiatic in learning

hurray~~

2009-03-03T01:03:00.004+08:00

today i hardly have a holiday...yahooo~~~ it's self declare holiday
WHY??
b'coz my teacher fall sick today,due to extreme cold weather outside.....so there wont be classes for me today and tomorrow
i sound so evil...bt i guess i m not the only one celebrating over her absence. the little angle inside my heart still praying that she will be fine, bt only after my cycle ends.....hahaha xD
but,
i din use my free time wisely...aih wasted up my free time agian
i din really collecting my pancakes...nor eating them up...gosh~~~
still hv dozens of them all over the floor

gambateh...enyuan, u can do it~!

weekends...

2009-02-27T21:01:00.000+08:00

ah~~~how i love weekends...
i can put my books away....
i can sleep as late as i wish....
i can watch as many movies as i want..(although i m watching everyday,haha)
i can do something else i interested with.. (hm...what shall i do this week?)
and...yeah~!i m goin to ski tmr,hahah
came to ukraine so long bt never try skiing...this will be my 1st time, yeah~
long time never update pics in my blog d...hope this time will take some awesome scenery shoots :)
will update shortly...c ya till then~

相遇不是用來生氣的

2009-02-23T02:34:00.002+08:00

前日往回家的公車上，

一對上班族男女吸引了我的目光，

而他們的一段對話，更讓人難忘。

每天搭乘公車上下班，來回通勤時間約莫近二小時，

有時人少，可坐在位置上欣賞窗外的風景；

人多時，也只能慢慢地擠回家，

但這時，身邊乘客的對話總會不時地傳到耳邊。

前日往回家的公車上，轉程靠站時，乘客頓時多了起來。

一對上班族男女恰巧在我身邊，吸引了我的目光。

可能因為人多，男的不時地將手臂圍住女的，

並輕聲的問「累不累？」

「待會想吃些什麼？」

只見女的不耐煩地回答

「我已經夠煩了，吃什麼都還不先決定，每次都要問我。」

男的一臉無辜的低下頭，而後說了令我印象深刻的話。

「讓妳決定是因為希望能夠陪妳吃妳喜歡的東西，

然後看到妳滿足的笑容，

把今天工作的不愉快暫時忘掉。

我的能力不足，

妳工作上所受的委屈我沒法幫妳，

我所能做的也只有這樣。」

女的聽了後，滿懷愧疚的說聲對不起。

男的這才似乎重燃信心般說：

「沒關係，只要你開心就好。」

而後親吻了女的頭髮。

下車前再回頭看看這對情侶，

男的依舊保護著心愛的人。

這樣的情景，

讓我覺得自己今天同樣在工作上有些許不愉快，

如果沒有聽到這一段對話，回家後的我，

可能也是一副全世界都對不起我的臭臉面對心愛的人，

只在乎自己的委屈，

卻忽視對方的感受，

不自覺地傷害最親密的人。

所以在踏進家門時，我問自己，

難道我要像公車上那位女孩一樣忍心

將自己的不滿委屈帶給身旁的人嗎？

不，我想我現在應該做的是...

別再把工作上的情緒發洩在心愛的人身上，

破壞了最親密的關係，

並且主動給自己一個微笑。

相遇，不是用來生氣的！說得真好！

當自己快抓不住情緒時，想想這句話，

應該會讓煩忙的生活，加些微笑的因子吧！

同樣地，在日常生活中，我們牽掛得太多，

我們太在意得失，所以我們的情緒起伏，

我們不快樂。在生氣之際，我們如能多想想︰

「我不是為了生氣而工作的。」

「我不是為了生氣而教書的。」

「我不是為了生氣而交朋友的。」

「我不是為了生氣而作夫妻的。」

「我不是為了生氣而生兒育女的。」

那麼我們會為我們煩惱的心情闢出另一番安詳

看完之後…

當你和朋友..家人爭執時…

要記得你們的相遇…

不是用來生氣的喔…

但...人非聖賢...

誰能不生氣呢…

看了這篇文章以後…

記得.....下次要生氣時…

就別生太久…

免得傷心、傷肝、傷腎又傷腸胃…

recent updates

2009-02-19T05:21:00.003+08:00

just finished my hematology cycle...final day with patient examination was rather easier then what i thought. it's not a good news for me.
WHY? i hope to get something more challenging tasks...which will point out my mistakes. it's always better to make the mistake(of course not intentionally) while u r still forgivable to make it...
tmr starting new cycle, epidemiology....gonna have a weirdo as my teacher,hope she won't fry and squeeze me up alive :D

regarding my flight back to malaysia...i was wondering to take a safe journey with a more expensive ticket(simferopol-- istanbul -- singapore), or another cheaper but rather risky and troublesom option (simferopol -- kiev -- london -- dubai-- KL). i m looking forward to pay london a visit during my time in europe, and this will be a good chance for me...but i still wish to go back msia asap.....the 2nd option is so temptating which i feel like not gonna miss it. both option will cause a severe hemorrhage for my wallet, unless i won't hang around while transitting, which i will feel sorry to myself if i don't do it...neh neh~

some personal issues troubling me recently.....ops, i just did say it's troubling me. yeah~ i hate think kind of feelings very much. i guess i had my worst ever week, and i was half concious, even lifeless apathic person for that duration. if i'm back to what i was last time, i would have throw everything out and clear my mind, calm my soul. but this time i gonna face it like a man. running away won't do any good to me, so do to the other party. no matter how's the outcome, face it like a man.

a newcomer to my group...she did a credit transfer from a medical university in Luganks, ukraine. hope she can cope well with life in simferopol. :)

happy valentines' day~ :)

2009-02-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if theyaren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...

To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you', but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'

To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but
it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to
find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not
'going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now Let go.....

TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......
My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature,
never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.